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    Even So, Can I Stay Curious?

    Even So, Can I Stay Curious?

    It's all so much these days-- too much, almost-- even though I believe the Spirit promises to help us bear challenges and suffering.  Lately, in moments of deep grief, overwhelm, and anger, a Fox has appeared twice in my new art images.  

    First, the Fox came several months ago as a sleeping figure.  She was nestled in a calm background of warm ground and peaceful night.  And although the image edges might be fraying, a glowing center of hope or protection calls our friend Fox into trust and rest.  Little did I know, soon after I made this painting, my wife, Hollin, would be diagnosed with low-grade breast cancer on top of her chronic illness (ME/CFS).  When I woke in the night and couldn't get back to sleep, I remembered this nestled Fox image as a prayer and a way to soothe my heart.  I practiced coming back to trust, over and over and over, the way I had circled the moon and the Light with colored pencils.  Over and over and over.

    Just a few weeks ago, the Fox returned in an emotionally turbulent painting.  I began by making hundreds of cathartic marks-- some of them smooth for the practice of trust, faith, and centeredness, and many of them chaotic and tangled to represent questions and heartbreak, anger and turmoil.  My Hol was scheduled for surgery, and just about everyone I knew was dealing with some kind of upheaval or hardship.  My heart was in knots about children in prison camps, violence against our immigrant neighbors, corruption and abuse at every turn, suppression of truth, and ever-increasing climate disruption.  

    Then our Fox came and sat right there, in the midst.  And of all things, she looked rather curious.  Curious, really?!?  I thought she would be growling, or moaning, or hiding.  But she showed up in another form of trusting: in wonderment.  

    I'll be honest, I don't always understand my paintings.  It sometimes really bugs me that when I'm feeling the most anxious and frustrated, images come to me with some element of invitation, grace, or opening.  The moon shows up, waxing.  Here we are in tumble and turmoil, and the Fox stays curious.  

    Ironically, I often asked my former students or clients to consider curiosity as a useful first response.  When something "goes wrong" in art-making, can we wonder what happens next rather than judge ourselves for screwing up?  If someone unloads a negative attitude, can we first be curious about how they are hurting or wounded?  It can be a powerful practice to start with curiosity.  Yet even today writing this, I'm still surprised that Fox came to ask me the same thing!

    I suspect this Fox is inviting me to take curiosity to another, deeper level.  For example, can Hol and I return to wondering what happens next, staying open to faith and the richness of life, after each medical appointment?  [So far, Hol's prognosis is good, and we are so grateful for friends and family supporting us!]  If I hear today's news stories of horrific injustice, abuses of power, or harm to our dear planet Earth, can I remain engaged in the process of envisioning change, always on the curious lookout for my parts to play?  When I am overwhelmed, will I choose to circle back to trust, over and over, listening for spiritual guidance?  

    Impossible challenges and real suffering are all around us.  Nevertheless, here's the Fox knowing we can make and hold spaces for each other where it's still safe to dream.  Even so, Fox brings an invitation to stay curious. 

    May these images and practices give us a bit hope in the midst of it all.


    Are these images inspiring you?  You're welcome to buy a Safe to Dream Art Print, and an Even So Art Print.
    For more details, see the Safe to Dream Gallery Item page, and the Even So Gallery Item page
    (Please forgive the watermarks on these internet images... it helps lessen unauthorized reproduction out on the wide web.  My art prints are made without watermarks, beautifully.)
    7-31-19 Update:
    Hol came through surgery rather well a few weeks ago.  She's healing now, and will soon make plans to begin treatments.  Thanks for lifting us in prayer or supportive intentions.  May you and yours be upheld also.

    New and Improved

    New and Improved

    At last... the long-awaited website update!  After many months of work, you're now enjoying the fresh and improved  Hurrah!  I hope you'll take a good look around and feel inspired by what you see.

    The biggest change is in the Shop, now empowered by Shopify for a much better purchasing experience.  Customers can use any credit card now, rather than the required PayPal account from my trusty but rusty old website.  Email notifications and tracking numbers are available now too.  Consider buying Original Art more directly, or search the Shop for categories of Standard Art Prints, Giclée Art Prints, and Art & Wisdom Card Decks.  Better photos and descriptions of all the products throughout, don't you think?

    For a final fancy touch, go to the Home page and scroll down to see my latest Instagram posts in little squares ready for your viewing pleasure.  Technology is amazing!  

    Help me welcome the new website in July with a Kick-Off Celebration offer.  When you make a purchase July 12-31, I'll include a free single Art Card personally and prayerfully drawn just for you.  It's super fun for me to choose them as a blessing, and inspiring for you to find out what card you receive!

    As always, if you have questions or need help navigating the new site, just let me know.  Use the phone number or "Contact Us" link at the bottom of this page. 

    Thanks, and enjoy!  --Melanie